im at a luss

I’m at a luss

I guess trust is hard to come by,

I’ve been spoon fed

An entire bucket of dumb lies,

And each time

My dumb self tries to believe,

As a kid

I used to believe in the birds and bees,

And up until these days

I used to believe in you and me,

But how many times

Can you get shoed?

Before the bee leaves,

Believe me,

I’ve done the math

I even broke out a pad

And jotted down a graph

And tallied up the stats

I signed it with my autograph

With intentions to send it

I started the letter off

“Confused”, in caps lock and indented

The pages ran on

As I reminisced

From our first date

To our last kiss

I know I think too much

And it gets the best of me,

It grabs hold of my soul

And won’t let go of the rest of me,

I’ve never had to deal with trust

I guess its just life testing me,

If there’s a cure for pain

I wish I knew the recipe

So I could drink it down

Like the soup that mama made,

Our bond is thicker

Than a jar of marmalade

Back home in our backyard

Watching Karma play,

Now were on other sides of the world

But it’s really not that far away

I’ve grown a lot on my own

Knowing your there for me,

Supporting my ideas

And living through all my stories,

Watching over my back

Always there to forewarn me,

You’re my guiding light

When my life gets stormy,

I remember back

When I was just a little chap,

You told me not to take your calculator

But I did in fact,

I snuck it in my bag

On my way to school,

You found out the next day

And boy was I the fool, (Oh damn!)

It was the first time

I’d seen you mad,

And seeing you like that

Really made me sad,

I knew that I had let you down

And I made it a point,

From then on

To always hold my ground

I’ve learned that trust is a vital key

And the way to unlock

Another’s heart successfully

Is to communicate openly

Lay your cards on the table

So the only label I hide

Is the one

Covering my navel,

There’s a lot of thing I am

And a lot that I’m not,

I’ve seen a lot of people pretend to have

When they really have not,

So I made it a point to be me the damn start,

Cause, me is all I got,

And when you break the self down

Heart is all you got

And when heart is all you got

Then heart is all you have

That is why we use our heart

To express the good and bad

Remember the Grinch Who Stole Christmas

And the heart he never had

But by the end of the flick

His heart was filled like a bag

Damn, now didn’t that send a message?

To all the little sisters and brethren’s

That’s been pestering

Each other from day one-

This world could learn a lesson

By opening their arms

And putting down all their weapons,

I know that times have been hard

And that we’ve been tested

But it couldn’t do no harm

Were not headed

In the right direction

With each wound we suffer

We all get infected

And if everyone is hurt

Then who’s there to protect us