dont blow it

I’m desperate!

I sound desperate!

And fuck I feel it too!

Each girl that gives me an ounce of attention

I prance on like I’ve been locked up for a year.

The thing is it’s not even girls that id generally find attractive, or relationship-py

It’s just I long for connection, the touch, love, yearning-

I need someone to be thinking of me, for me to feel satisfied.

All I think about is sex…

Who am I gonna fuck?

Who can I text?

Is she single?

Maybe I’ll talk to her!

I jump at the first attempt- though nothing is premeditated,

It constantly comes from the dick…..

I think with my fucking dick 100% of the day-

I don’t get work done because of my fucking dick

I can’t even concentrate because of my dick

I wake up in the morning thinking, thinking of fucking…

Porn timeout- back in 10 minutes!

Ahh….

See what I mean-

I can’t even get through a page without my dick feeling left out.

So here I am stuck in a predicament if whether or not I want a relationship-

But fuck trying to get one because I’m too hot out the gate-

My dicks always front row eking to get a better peek of who’s on stage-

And once blow I pretty much lose my gusto and enthusiasm-

Kind of just move onto the next girl on the spot.

I can be so into a girl- hard crushing- blow it- next day-

Bam onto the next one!

But that makes me think, if it didn’t work out what if I didn’t blow it-

Where would I be now in a relationship with that girl I just had thoughts of fucking?

I have to impose a screening process because my mind jumps around way too quickly.

One day I want a girlfriend the next, perhaps even hours later, I just want to be single and fucking.

It’s too damn hard to define what I want because the majority of the girls I meet I don’t see a future, but I see a girl who wants to play- so play I do- maybe I’ll even play a few more games, but soon I’m looking for a new field to play on- this always happens when I move too quickly.

But I think that goes for many- all my relationships that worked out- well, at least lasted longer than a few fucks, relationships where we got to know one another first. I think sex is the instant killer- unless, it’s the opposite where we have sex, I fall in love and the she loses interest. It’s never been mutual for me moving things too quickly.

Basically, what this comes down to is; what do I want? I want to play, go play! If I want a relationship, then work on a relationship- just don’t rush into either with your dick out. Have a well articulated plan- not the ol’ call up for sex, housebound perv, but a nice guy- if you have to… go jerk off and call her after.

Speaking of that, I’m going to take care of that once again.

I am in charge of my destiny-

Don’t blow it!!